The sweetest revenge is success

bluewaves_aiz
10232012

To all my unsupportive, consistent detractors and back-stabbing friends... To my overtly imaginative malicious relatives who says they were concerned, but does the opposite act... To all those who criticized my family, I don't think I can let this go without telling you... Thank you.

I had never been good at confrontations, and clearing one's name, or even defending myself. I feel its too below my level, but then I again, people abuse it. I'm glad I stayed away from them, and maintained my composure at this things.

I don't account my success, or my happiness right now, to any of them, but I'd still wanna say thank you.

Maybe I need to translate this to tagalog, or even mention names para maintindihan niyo.

Salamat at nariyan kayo para pahinain ako, dahil kung kailan niyo ako pinahina, saka ako lumalakas. Ako'y nadaplisan niyo lang, kaya ngayon ako'y mas matapang. Subukan kong isa-isahin kayo

.MMVA: Buhay pa pala kayo? Matagal na kasi kayong patay sa puso ko... Ipagpatuloy niyo lang yan, baka sakaling diyan kayo sumaya.
.SJDP: The gossip queens. Oh, concerned pala kayo? Akala ko naghahanap lang kayo ng pwedeng pagkwentuhan sa telepono. I hope, I hope, na sana hindi mapatid ng inyong dila ang inyong pagasa. Oh well, never criticize my mom. Could you at least reflect on your actions? Please... Wag magmalinis. Hindi porke't nalagyan ng espasol ang mukha, malinis na. Tumingin sa pinanggalingan.
.FGFB: Maunfriend nga kayo sa facebook, maunfollow sa twitter, at masabitan nga sa likod ng "STAB ME BACK"
.wala na akong maisip.

Disclaimer: All of the characters here are fictional and exist only in black hole universe. The memory and imagination of the author is so vivid and factual that she hopes stone hits people when they read it.

Just a single note

bluewaves_aiz

04192013

I should work my ass off with the pile of tasks that I should finish by now.
But no.... this single note caught my attention, and now, I'm blown with emotions.

Maybe I'm over thinking again, but I don't know how can I ever erase, the feeling they made me feel.
When I was so down, they thumped me even more. Saying, "you're dead", "Don't call me **, I'm not your sister", etc. Goodness.... That's the love they know.
Oh, how can I ever forget the "wasteful" words they threw? The overrated stories they tell? And yes, that's because of "LOVE". I WANTEEDDD TOOO SCREEEEAAAAMMMMM!!!
I thought, this was all at the back of mind, in the abyss so I can never see any glimpse. But then, "it all came back to me".

No... I have beaten them all. And if not for the following persons, I may not have weathered the storm: to my Mom, though we have lots of disagreements and arguments, I really appreciated it when you were there to back me up and cry with me; to my ever dearest husband, who was stronger than I am; to my baby, Sky, that became my well of inspiration; and to my photobomber baby brother, who never judges, but always accepts... Thank you. This is my circle of trust.... They are the few who I consider my family. And just around them, I am happy...

So after this... I hope to erase those bad memories... and create happier memories with my circle of trust...

Happy First Wedding Anniversary Hubby!

bluewaves_aiz
07122012


6 days more, and we'll relive again our vows (spoken and unspoken) that day, when we were united by our hearts, our hopes, our vows, and by law.


Here we are... standing stronger... unfazed by trials... on our path of realizing our dreams... happily nurturing, loving, and securing our sky.


Let me dedicate this to my hubby - JERICO IBAÑEZ.


Why do I love thee? Let me count the reasons:


.I love it when he cooks (he's way better than me, as in...). He cooks with heart, the presumptuous meals he serve, simple or classy, I really appreciate it. And I wanted to serve, even just to be par at his level
.I love his patience and temper,.. how he bears with me when I'm irritated (which is like always)... how he is diplomatic, cool and relax with me. It reminds me that life's 90-10, it depends on how we react.
.His naughtiness and his body (I should not disclose this, but yeah, I'm proud). Should I say more?
.He is a good father. He's really a keepsake. He has the stamina to hold sky for hours and to soothe him when he wanted to sleep without the duyan. And that's really and amazing feat (talking about flex, huh)... Let's prepare for sky's future, hubby.
.His sense of humor... That's what made me fall for back then... and till now.
.Mr. Videoke King. hehe... you got it, we both loveeeee it! This, I think, is the only hobby we both love - singing... So you can just imagine two tone-deaf couple hopping ktv rooms (you can join us if you want).
.He really has a good personality - his greatest asset. No wonder he got my parents passing mark. He knows how to mingle with people, even if he is sometimes shy. He's great to hangout with.
.His humility. A really humble individual, no pretensions.
.His craziness... rarely and random... But once it gets you, you wanted to crave for more.
.He plans and acts. Unlike me, who is just good at planning, he accomplishes what he plans. He does not just blabber, he rocks.
.He holds a dream, and even if that seems hard to be realized, he achieves it(Ikaw ba naman magpa-aral sa sarili mo, I salute you hubby!).


This is the man I wanted to fall in love again and again... Loveyousomuch...

Picking up the Lost Pieces

bluewaves_aiz
07122012

I usually write when I'm full of ideas, and right now, I do.


2 years passed by so fast, many things have changed, I am still anchored to that Mariz 2 years ago. What is she before?


She's very passionate, she wanted to excel, and exceed herself. She may not be talented and innately genius, but she love challenges. She's thirsty of it. She wanted to sharpen herself, and be better always. She dreams a lot, plans a lot.


But over the course of the year, she lost it... with reasons controllable and uncontrollable. She wanted to revive the beat, so she hopes she gets it here.


But of course, to do so, she has to upgrade herself. And here they are:


.to have greater Faith, Love, and Trust with JEHOVAH
.to have a positive outlook in life
.to appreciate life's blessings, simple and great
.to look ahead, plan, and implement
.to use time more valuably
.to value the gift of life and time
.to surround herself with inspiring people
.to love herself, hubby, and sky
.to be philosophical and intuitive
.to acquire more sense of humor (though this comes by nature)
.to laugh,.... and laugh louder
.to cook with all of heart
.to enhance temperance
.to be sweeter...
.to be proactive


and the list may go endless... But as I end this, let me quote her saying ( she actually forgot it a long time),


"Learning is My Passion... Perfection is what I aim... Mobility is my way"

A Dream Come True...

bluewaves_aiz
08032011

I believe it's every girls dream to end up with their prince... Mine was just as simple as that.

Never did I dream it to be grand, I just want it solemn and intimate - just the two of us, and people special to us. I just want it simply elegant.

And it happened, last July 18, I got married to the man I dream of spending my life with everyday on solemn ceremonial rites attended by our close relatives.

We exchanged vows, exchanged rings, united our hearts.

I tried not to be too emotional and over excited on the occasion. Fortunate enough, I just enjoyed the event. It was fun.

This is actually my wedding vow, that I wasn't able to say that day, for fear I'll drown in tears, and ruin my makeup:

"I don't see myself, ending up with anyone else... except you. I realized it long ago, and I'll say it more now. I can't imagine future without you. I might live, but I don't have life at all - another zombie. Mere thoughts of staying away from you, causes me unbearable pain. So how can I stay away?
I know there will be more obstacles, pain, and issues we will be facing. But as long as we have each other, helping, loving and respecting one another, with Jehovah's grace, we can make it.
I won't promise you perfection, but I'll show you the best of what I can.
I'll try to love you at your best, and love you more at your worst.
I'll serve you with utmost love, and be a submissive wife, uttering respect.
This, might be of great challenge to me, but grace me with your trust and love.
And this I'll say everyday, "Loveyousomuch hubby"

And I wanna repeat this.... over and over again... with the same person.

It's all about Positivity...

bluewaves_aiz
03152012

Even when I'm still on the process of returning, I feel that Jehovah is with me... by giving me the most precious gift I can have with my life - and that's my baby.

I harbor no regrets, doubt, and pain for having him in my life. I put every negative thoughts at my back. Only fear keeps me on the ground. But I have trust in Jehovah to always guide me, to always help me, and to always strengthen me in every step I make.

I don't want to stuck at that gloomy part of my life. Because I didn't fail. Having Sky is not a failure at all - it's the greatest blessing I have. And I want to cherish it.

Every piece/strand of me, I give HIM praise. I want Jehovah God to shine HIS face on me. And that is by showing HIM that I Love HIM, by Trusting HIM, and by showing my wholeheartedly Obedience at HIS Will. I want to be a better child for HIM, and a better mother for sky.

I'm starting the 20 years project of raising a kid. I know I can't be perfect, but I promise to be the best mother there will be for my son. I have FAITH, TRUST, and HOPE that JEHOVAH God will be there to guide me.

*** Positivity and praise is running down on my every nerve. Unfortunately, my fingers are slow enough to tap every thoughts that pass my head. This blog is not enough. I want to show the world how happy and blessed I am with my life.

He is Jehovah's blessing

bluewaves_aiz
10112011

"Look! Sons are an inheritance from Jehovah;
The fruitage of the belly is a reward."
Psalms 127:3

Love, excitement, anxiety, fear, doubts, tenderness - name it, emotions are welling up on me. With this new life on my womb, it feels like I'm given a great privilege, trust and opportunity. Imagine, I'll be sustaining a new life.

For how amazing this journey would be... to feel his kicks, to listen to his heartbeat... to watch and nurture him once he come out... to guide him and help him in the best way possible, to become a faithful servant of Jehovah... to provide his basic needs, and shower him more with love and affection.

I know this would entail me on a new role - MOTHER. And honestly, it haven't sunk that too much on my soul. But I will... and I'm preparing.

I really wish you to be normal, healthy, wise and knowledgeable, discipline, obedient, fearful of Jah's words, loving and adoring child.

Loveyousomuch sky... See you soon enough...