Standing UP

bluewaves_aiz
05/13/2017

It's been so long since I last write something here. What should I say? Should I pour out my heart? My thoughts? What's going on in my life right now?

The past year has been tumultuous. We came to Australia on July 30, 2017. One more GOAL slashed from my list, and I was stoked. I am proud of that achievement, honestly. I worked hard for it. But change is not always easy. I had a month vacation before coming here, and from there on, I was a slacker.

I've worked so hard all my life. I didn't even have a vacation when I had a son, except for the maternity leave. So I wasn't that motivated to find work immediately. Plus, I miss my son so much. Plus, I prioritized my spirituality. Plus, I really find it hard to find a new job. Plus, we had big rocks on our marriage (maybe I should write it down some other time). Voila, a year passed and I still don't have work.

I am LOST. I was depressed for a period. What should I do with my life? My husband even said that I'm no longer the Mariz she knows. and I guess, every blow I faced in my life, shaped me. I hate it, but it changes me.

I hope writing this down clears my thoughts somehow. GOALS. PLANS. DREAMS. EXECUTE. I love them. I love planning and dreaming. I think that is my hobby. And I should now work harder for these.

Dreams:

1. House and Lot in Australia, lower than 750k, to buy on 2018.
    How: 2k dollars per month savings from Jerico, And I need to find work (all salary for this, so if         45k annual, give it all).
2. Have another kid before I turn 30.
3. Work. My biggest problem. I have 2 options, but will work hard on the first one, first.
    I want to be a Project Manager.
    Maybe a Registered Nurse, or an Administration work.
4. Take up MBA
5. Build our own business.
6. Have a balanced and holistic lifestyle. I even want a minimalist lifestyle.
7. Be a pioneer by 45.

Steps to take for now:

- Finish this Aged Care course first, then find work for this line.
- Find an IT job everyday 10/day.
- When I have a job, just keep up the routine. Earn, Save, Work hard to be promoted, Be happy, Live.
- Study MBA.
- When you know what you want and what you are passionate about, build your own business.