Demotivated

bluewaves_aiz
02082011

Tactless, I'll say what I have to say.

I'm not happy, not satisfied, not at all contented with where I am.

I still have a lot of rice to eat, and yes, that's just what I need. The main reason why I work, is to gain experience, so that after I come out of the world 2-4years from now, I can say, "Hey, I'm expert and experienced, Hire me!"

I admit I had problems what field to pursue, what language to focus on. Because I know a little about a lot, and that's just like "Jack of all trades but a master of none." And I don't want that. Even if I'll be a Jack of all trades, I want to be a master of ONE.

So that's where my problem lies. The field Application's Development/Web Development that I'd like to delve unto, is swayed far from where I stand. I was excited at my first months taking some taste at other fields, but I don't want to be swayed from coding at all.

I know this won't be a forever field. But I still imagine myself doing it 10-20years from now. That's what I think of.

And I've wasted 7months, and probably, will waste 1 and 1/2 year of my life if I stayed this way.

Yeah, do this to me, but you see, I'm way brighter than what you use to see at me. If you can't give me what I want, I'll get it somewhere else. I'm not at all contented with the floor I'm standing. I'll be a superman. You'll see.

This will serve as a challenge for me. If you won't give the opportunity, I'll make one for myself.

I'll focus on web development. But I'll be a superman. I don't wanna sound so conceited but I'm wasting my talent, my knowledge, my passion at doing things I never even appreciated.

I'll be an expert Web Developer, you'll see. That won't be a piece of cake, but its taste of challenge is better. I'll get loads of it.