Standing UP

bluewaves_aiz
05/13/2017

It's been so long since I last write something here. What should I say? Should I pour out my heart? My thoughts? What's going on in my life right now?

The past year has been tumultuous. We came to Australia on July 30, 2017. One more GOAL slashed from my list, and I was stoked. I am proud of that achievement, honestly. I worked hard for it. But change is not always easy. I had a month vacation before coming here, and from there on, I was a slacker.

I've worked so hard all my life. I didn't even have a vacation when I had a son, except for the maternity leave. So I wasn't that motivated to find work immediately. Plus, I miss my son so much. Plus, I prioritized my spirituality. Plus, I really find it hard to find a new job. Plus, we had big rocks on our marriage (maybe I should write it down some other time). Voila, a year passed and I still don't have work.

I am LOST. I was depressed for a period. What should I do with my life? My husband even said that I'm no longer the Mariz she knows. and I guess, every blow I faced in my life, shaped me. I hate it, but it changes me.

I hope writing this down clears my thoughts somehow. GOALS. PLANS. DREAMS. EXECUTE. I love them. I love planning and dreaming. I think that is my hobby. And I should now work harder for these.

Dreams:

1. House and Lot in Australia, lower than 750k, to buy on 2018.
    How: 2k dollars per month savings from Jerico, And I need to find work (all salary for this, so if         45k annual, give it all).
2. Have another kid before I turn 30.
3. Work. My biggest problem. I have 2 options, but will work hard on the first one, first.
    I want to be a Project Manager.
    Maybe a Registered Nurse, or an Administration work.
4. Take up MBA
5. Build our own business.
6. Have a balanced and holistic lifestyle. I even want a minimalist lifestyle.
7. Be a pioneer by 45.

Steps to take for now:

- Finish this Aged Care course first, then find work for this line.
- Find an IT job everyday 10/day.
- When I have a job, just keep up the routine. Earn, Save, Work hard to be promoted, Be happy, Live.
- Study MBA.
- When you know what you want and what you are passionate about, build your own business.

Post 3rd Wedding Anniversary

bluewaves_aiz

11262014

"Just like how we can't fully predict a storm, I wasn't able to anticipate how and when you came in to my life, I just had that gutsy paranoid feeling... I never knew it was you. You took me by storm."

Exactly my thought before our wedding anniversary trip. We're at signal no.3 at that time, and our flight was cancelled twice. It's my first time to experience black out in Metro. But with the "cooperating" weather, we we're able to fly to.... Boracay! First time to get on a plane, so yeah, I enjoyed it. 

For this year, we laid down the expectations for the anniversary, we'll go a "honeymoon" trip, exchange non-material gifts and just enjoy! 

So here's what I got for him. This envelopes are our time machine. We'll be writing each other a letter yearly, to be read on the 25th year of our marriage (if that comes, optimistically).

And here, is his special gift - Gift VOUCHERS! Can be availed up to July 18, 2015. It includes simple deeds such as massage, dinner, treat... I really find this cute, and I'm glad that he appreciates it.

And his gift for me? secret.... (Clue: can't be shown to public, so cheesy) :P

I'm coming out...

bluewaves_aiz
06282011

I feel like I'm a gay, coming out of my closet, facing harsh reality for being who I am, but gives me peace at my heart.

I'm not proud of what I did, and I know this is not the best situation. But I'm unexpectedly happy that I came out. I'm at peace, really.

Of Maturity

11282012

bluewaves_aiz

Days are rolling and I have this thoughts swirling in my mind about nature and stuffs. 

And when I plan to write it down, it pops, voila,.. nothing tips...

Life's unfair

bluewave_aiz
09112013

I feel suffocated for the longest time already, not with my hubby, but with my b****y b***...
I never had these strictest rules since high school... and mind you, that was HIGHSCHOOL!!!
It makes me wanna resign already.

Rules that she's strict with us... but when she does it, she's good to go... tsk tsk tsk...
This is useless...

#RantRantRant

You're the Best Thing That Ever Happened to Me

bluewaves_aiz

07172013

Few hours more... and here we are... celebrating our 2nd year as lawfully wedded couple...

and I could not describe what I'm feeling as more fitting than this song...

"If anyone should ever write my life story

For whatever reason there might be

You'd be there between each line of pain and glory

'Cause you're the best thing that ever happened to me

You're the best thing that ever happened to me

Oh, there have been times when the times were so hard

But somehow, some way I'd made it through

And for every moment I've spent hurting

There's been moments spent loving you"

Happy anniversary hubby! Loveyousomuch :-*

Dreams without plan only exist in dreams

bluewaves_aiz

07092013

I had always been a futuristic kind of person, much of my same-age-peers can't really relate. That when I was in highschool, I'm thinking of college already. That when I was in college, I was thinking of how I'll work. And when I worked, I had this checklist of plans before and after I got married.

But some things happen that knock your plan out of your face. You stumble and you fall. But this post isn't about negativity. This post is about my dreams... that should have a plan

1. House and Lot - I've been thinking about this since I was in college. And now has become my biggest frustration. Not necessarily in a poshed subdivision. I just need it to be in metro, not flooded, and we'll build it ground up. 

2. Business - I'm thinking of a transport business, or a food-related business, or fashion-related goods. Should implement capitalist outlook.

3. Build wealth on my investments - Stocks investments and trading. Invest on knowledge and implement :)

4. Car - Not on my priority list as this depreciates value over time, but this is nice to have especially for Sky

5. Career - Be on deep ABAP or be a Logistics TechnoFunc. Have Implementation stint, and ABAP certification. Then also master android development for part time work. Cool, huh?

6. Overseas - Try Singapore :)

7. Migrate -in Australia, Canada or New Zealand. Only 2years waiting!!!