bluewaves_aiz
09092010
It has been a long time since I wrote my spontaneous blogs, so trashy, I think... But recently, well maybe for a month, something bothers me - my career path.
When I was in elementary, I dream of graduating in highschool, when I was in 1st year high school, I dream of going to college, and when I turned to college, I dream of working. Yes, I just dream to advance. So futuristic that I really think, planning for future is my strength. But I'm weak at implementing it.
Highschool: My more specific dream, to be a psychologist and to study in UP. But when I need to follow-up my papers, and my parents disagree with the course, I ended up taking the path I didn't dream of. Fear, low self-esteem, low self-drive, procrastination, laziness and energiless actions contributed in doing so. Yes. I acknowledge my mistakes. I stayed within my comfort zone. But there is no room for regret now.
So when I started preparing for my on-the-job training, I corrected my mistakes - I chased after my dream, to work here in Manila. So even if it is always traffic, even it gives me stress, even when I loose weight, even if I stayed away from him, even if I can no longer give myself some luxury - it was all worth it. I gained what I want.
That's how stubborn I am. Even if it doesn't alleviate the situation, as long as I don't like it, I won't do it.
But now, grrrr... I'm doing some mainframe job. It's now what I dream at all. It doesn't make me happy.
And I'm afraid I'll stuck here for 2years. huhuhu... although, mainframe job has a lot of opportunities, and really, 40% of the biggest system still uses mainframe, it doesn't make me happy. Maybe because I'm not that good at it. It doesn't make me happy...
They said this field is an acquired taste. If it gives big bucks, why not! But my first love is for .NET and Java, and Web fields as well.
So I'm determined to use my spare time to study beyond my present commitment, and if chance is given, I'd like to pursue my passion and walk the career path I'd like to take.
"Never let your commitments interfere with your dream" - bluewaves_aiz
My goal for 5 years: BE promoted. To 3rd degree above my present position. And walk Java Development side. Be it web or standalone. I believe those go side by side.
